What’s with the title? I have to be honest. I have been a shitty blogger for the past few months.
Why post a confession? I follow this blog called Indie Authors & Book Blogs (Great blog, check it out) and each week they post these confessions that are sent in by Authors, Bloggers, and/or readers. Reading those is somewhat like my own little soapbox, and I have felt just the same as some of those who submitted anonymous confessions. I have thought about submitting a confession or two but thought my rambling would be too much to fit on one of those confessions so why not post one on here. So I’m going to start from the beginning to where I’m at today. (I’ll try and keep this somewhat short)
I’ve been an avid reader for years and must admit when I would finish a book I would give a star rating but leave out the review. I thought I would sound like an idiot trying to portray my feelings for a book. When I learned of the book community on Facebook and started following book blogs and authors, some I had heard of and others I had not, I learned from following them that reviews are very important. So I thought baby steps. I started writing reviews, usually a sentence or two just stating whether I like it or not. It wasn’t too bad and I thought maybe my little review might help in some way or another.
After a year of following Authors and Blogs (Around 4000 at the time), I thought I could do this. I love sharing book info and giveaways, I’m going to start a blog. Several times I almost started a page then that little voice in my head would say “Who is going to follow?” and I would quickly change my mind. I probably drove my husband insane asking him “Do you think I should start a blog?” He has always been supportive of my reading so of course he would say “I think it’s a great idea.” So one night sitting on my couch with the laptop on my lap I did it, I started a blog. I felt nervous, excited, and thought to myself, “What the hell do I do now?” I invited as many people as I knew that would be interested in helping me out. Soon some authors I had become friends with was spreading my page around and it started to grow rather quickly. Every time I would get a new like on my page I would jump for joy.
Soon after, I started receiving messages from Authors/PAs wanting help sharing or requesting a book review. I thought I was the shit being personally asked to review a book that had already been released or an ARC. It was a steady stream of requests at the beginning as my blog was building followers but then out of nowhere it seems the requests were doubling. At this point I learned a few things.
It took no time for me to learn that writing reviews for someone that personally asked me to read and review their book was tougher than I originally thought it would be. Mainly because I don’t like hurting people’s feelings, but I still wanted to be honest. If there are things in a book that could have made an impact on how I rated the book in a negative way I would try to be as constructive as possible. I hate reading mean reviews and I think they’re uncalled for. I also would write these long reviews that I was proud of but after a while figured that I was being somewhat of a hypocrite. I hate reading long reviews when I’m looking for a new book to read, so why am I writing them? Now I try and keep them shorter and to the point.
Star ratings can be tricky. There have been many times after finishing a book that I absolutely loved that made me think I should have rated some of my previously read books differently, but I don’t go change the rating. You wouldn’t think choosing between five stars could be so difficult, but it can be. So over the past six months or so my ratings have become… not harsher but I put more thought into it. Is it wrong to compare books? Some would say yes, but I have to compare my feeling between books just to get what I think is the correct star rating.
Here is where the start of me being a shitty blogger came in. I don’t think I possess the “No” gene because I wouldn’t turn anyone down. I just couldn’t, I thought it was possible for me to help every single person that asked for some type of help. I soon realized I’m not Superman and became very overwhelmed with all the books and blog tours I had signed up for. There was so much I wanted to do and not enough time. I came close to just shutting this blog down several times but didn’t want to let anyone down so I marched on.
I soon realized I was spending more time on my laptop instead of doing what I loved, which is reading. I would get so behind on the reviews that I would have to rush through these books just to get the review posted when I had promised. I don’t think this is fair to the authors because I wasn’t able to slow down and take the time I feel each of these books deserved. Sometimes I wouldn’t even make the deadline not only because I was overbooked but because I have a family that also needs my attention daily. Each time I wouldn’t meet a deadline I would feel terrible.
So between family, blog tours, and the abundance of review requests I made the decision a couple months ago to not accept any more reviews, unless I had previously reviewed from an author before, just to take a breather. I had came to realize that running this blog had took the fun out of reading for me, and it’s nobody’s fault but my own. I’m the one who signed up for everything that was sent my way. Not only did I stop the review requests, I had stopped reading and blogging as well.
After a few weeks of being blog and book free, I decided to do some re-reading and started with a few of the books that made me fall in love with reading in the first place. (The Boy Who Sneaks in My Bedroom Window by Kirsty Moseley, Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire, and a few others) After reading these, it put me right back into my reading groove and I have been reading several books a week again. I’ve been going through my kindle and trying out some of the books that have been sitting on there for a year or more. As much as I love getting ARCs to read I missed not having the chance to read some of the books I had purchased myself. Now I have the time to read those. (I will probably never get to all of them but I will damn sure try) I have also been slowly posting on my blog again. I still haven’t signed up for any blog tours, I will probably get back to that soon.
What’s the point of this post? There really isn’t one, I just wanted to get this off my chest. I’m not sure if anyone will even read this post. I would like to say if I have signed up for something and somehow missed it, I apologize. With all the craziness I had going on I’m sure quite a few things slipped my mind. I would also like to thank everyone who has followed along on my blogging journey so far and thank all of the Authors who has given me the opportunity to follow along in your journey as well.
Will I close my blog down? No, even if I only post a few times a week I’m still going to leave it up. I’m still going to continue to read, write reviews, and spread the love when I can. I’m just going to go at a slower pace.
What’s the greatest thing about starting a blog? For me, it’s all the amazing people I have met along the way. Some I consider my friends even though we may live in a different state or sometimes on a different continent. I’m thankful for every single person I have met and I hope to continue to make more friends in the book community.
So that’s basically the reason I have been a shitty book blogger. I feel a little better after typing this out. Who knows maybe I will do another confession again?